I never want to forget, although as the years seemed to have flown by, I feel I have in so many ways. And this, I don't like. I want to remember every detail about the abbreviated time we had with her, all the hopefulness, the visitors, that smell of the hand soap which was the only thing we could bring home those grueling weeks, the few times she opened her eyes, the joy of just being with her. The memories, waned.
During those numb days that followed her memorial service and burial, I wrote a book, which I am so extremely grateful for, as on this 10th anniversary of her passing on to Heaven, I can read it, and remember. I know God prompted me and gave me the strength to put together this memory book, even though at the time it was so extremely hard, yet so healing, all in the same weighty breath. Tears would fall, then a smile. It was so bittersweet. Now, today, as I re-read it again, those same elements are present, tears, a smile.
The beginning and the end, with a couple of my most favorite pages. I hope you can feel the love, the hope, my heart, as you read my penned words. And her face, that little,
chubby cheeked face.
Oh how I wish I could have kissed it...
just one more time.
The years have gone by, so many, many changes, trials, triumphs. We've had joyous marriages, delighted as new little ones were added to our family, we've had loss of dreams and forever vows. There is nothing though, that even comes close, to have lost a child, or in this case, our granddaughter. Yes, it was unbearable, yet in the heart raging storm, we had a hope, a peace, a deep down knowing that God was with us. He kept us and wrapped his warm loving self all around us.
So today, on this bitterly cold, seemingly sad day, we still feel that warmth from Him, knowing we will see this beautiful angel again.
That's divine hope. That's true love.
Dedicated
to you
my Sophie girl
Sophia
Elizabeth Stein
Born on January 21, 2006
Flew up to Heaven on
February 10, 2006
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